deadly_legacy | ✜023 [voice

[She's been wanting—well, needing—to do this since she awoke yesterday. Even though it was a curse and everyone is fine now as Lelouch says everyone still deserves an apology.

They deserve more.

But she isn't sure what else she has to offer. She started writing one a few times before deciding it needed to be in her own voice. She couldn't be so cowardly as to hide in a letter. She just needed another few minutes to make sure she could start without falling apart in the process.]

Hello. [Long pause.] I would like to apologize to everyone I spoke to yesterday and everyone who saw my awful, shocking post. I am especially sorry to Ken and Syaoran who I... [So much for keeping her voice together. The curse. Dean. Suzaku. It was a very, very emotional few days for her, but she was a princess. She needed to continue, so she did.] hurt. And of course to all of the Japanese for my hurtful words.

I am so very, very sorry.

Umi, Mara, Flynn, Yuri, Lelouch...thank you all so much for stopping me and for helping Ken and Syaoran. I am forever in your debt.

[Pause] Cain, I would like to take some time off of work.

(OOC: Action open to Lelouch and anyone storming the castle. I mean...visiting the apartment.)

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Just fine. Thank you, Shing. [Ever get that feeling like you're being lied to? This would be a good time for that feeling.]

No... I don't think you are.

Come on, Euphie... do you really not trust me enough that you can't tell me what's wrong?

Shing...

[She looks sad. Well, more sad. She didn't mean to make you feel that way.]

[Long pause.] I'm not doing so well.

...are you up for talking about it a little?

Are you sure you want to?

Yeah. You look like you could use someone who'd listen, anyway... and I'm here, aren't I?

You're good to me, Shing...

[Softly] It's just making me think a lot about something that happened before.

If I may... what happened before?

[Oh, Shing. Why are you so sweet. She will hug him back.]

...Before... I...

It was like that, but more people were...

Yeah, but... were you in control of yourself then, too? It didn't seem like it to me...

No, no, I never wanted to do it.

Heh... don't worry, Euphie. I know you aren't like that.

Still... it's a horrible feeling, isn't it? If not despair and anger at yourself, it's helplessness... not being able to stop yourself...

...You know it, Shing? Because of what happened with Yuri?

Well... it's only part of it...

That incident with Yuri... it's not the first time it's happened.

It's not?

No... it isn't. Back in my original world, when we were trying to help Kohaku, I...

[This requires another hug.] You don't have to tell me if you don't want to.

I know, but still... you're not the only one who's had to fight their friends unwillingly, Euphie.

By the time it was over... Kohaku was forced to submit to the bad guy's whims and did something for him that nearly destroyed our world. And I... almost died the very minute that Creed stop possessing my body.

[Fight? No, shot? Yes.] I'm so sorry, Shing. I'm glad you didn't.

Yeah... still, it made me doubt myself and wonder if I deserved to stay alive after that. Kohaku... she was the one who snapped me out of it.

I'm glad she did. Of course you deserved your life!

Yeah... I realized that afterwards. I was lucky to have her.

And... well. I know what happened with each of us may not be similar, but... I still want you to try and move forward, too. I know I don't blame you for what happened since I knew that you weren't in control of yourself.